Afraid

Long time no see!!! After a long wait, I finally gathered the courage to write a blog post. I love to write blog posts but still I am not able to do so. I have so many things/events to blog about, but some of the things have gone really wrong. Wrong to an extent that I couldn’t even gather enough courage to write a blog post.

I am simple boy brought up in a village environment. When I was a child, I used to dream of being a teacher or professor. When I was in 8th standard, we moved to district headquarters and I continued my studies there. In 10th class, I heard about IIT for the first time and being a brilliant student, I started dreaming about getting into one of the IITs. I couldn’t get into IIT, but I landed here at IIIT-H. I used computer (day to day use) for the first time after I joined IIIT. I came here with the dreams that I’ll excel in studies and will land in some company with a handsome salary. Will pay back my loans and live a life full of happiness etc. etc…

Everything was going fine till the end of the first semester. But then I got hooked to this fu**ing awesome thing called Linux. Since then, I never looked back and ignored everything from studies to health to relations (except parental). I kinda become a Linux geek while exploring it day n night. I started writing blogs about Linux which eventually became quite popular. At the same time, I sucked in studies. Got 2 D grades in the same semester and there is only one semester in which I didn’t get a D.

Everything was again going fine and I didn’t care about studies anymore. But then they offered this fu**ing awesome course ‘Social Entrepreneurship and Management’ as HSSM. I don’t know why I opted for that course. I think because friends were opting for that and thinking that they’ll probably teach me for the mid sems and end sem. The professor showed some serious videos of evolution of some social entrepreneurs ( including Mohd. Yunus). I got too much hooked to this idea of entrepreneurship and developed a different point of view. I started reading about the startups and how people actually start startups. I read tons of text about them and realized that its not really a big deal to really get started. But there are train load of risks involved. Its probably the easiest way to go bankrupt. But what if you succeed!!!

After reading a lot I have thought that I’ll give it a shot. Being a guy with open source thinking and having no money to spend on crazy stuff like a startup, I started exploring open source ways of starting startups with no money involved. Current status is that I am working really hard get something DONE. I think I am ignoring other things more than one should. Didn’t have breakfast in Feb so far except Feb 18th, 19th. Didn’t have lunch in Feb so far except Feb 18th. Got fever since last 4 days. But I won’t give up. I got to do it.

Somebody may think that why the hell are you doing all this? Just study and get placed in a company with a very good salary. But my only concern is my thinking. Nobody is going to pay me for sitting in their luxurious office and exploring open source and participating in open source development. I am not after money, I am after satisfaction. I can’t just work for a company which develops shitty softwares which don’t work when you need them the most.

Right now, I am pretty nervous and afraid of doing anything. I am concentrating more on work. I almost read every blog post written by bloggers from IIIT just to digg how people really view this world. I want to thank smr for sharing wonderful stuff on google reader about the emerging startups.

I tag smr for writing a post about this entrepreneurship thingy. I think he is the most experienced person in this field whom I know personally.

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15 thoughts on “Afraid

  1. breakfasts, dinners… man thats tooo toooooo much.. 😛
    anyways whats that you are behind, now ? some (ofcourse, good) product or…. a startup ?

  2. FANDOOOOO POST!!!!! Don’t really know whether it’s right to go public with your dreams at this stage….. but just loved the post. Regarding breakfasts and lunchs it’s not really that difficult a job! I’ve improved a lot on this scenario…. may be I can help you out in this… or at least give it a try… 🙂 .. as far as entrepreneurship is concerned I am still in touch with our professor Mr. K L srivastava, but that’s in Social domain 🙂 …. sill if you need some guidance…… all the best!!!

  3. It would be really great if a few startups started by IIITians succeed and get international recognition. Will really boost the confidence of poor souls like us who are too afraid to take the risk involved.
    Best of luck for your startup.

  4. @Gopal can’t really disclose everything …
    @Devansh thanks a ton
    @Pankaj well, even i didn’t want to say all that but a lot got accumulated in last few months … my head would have blown if I wait more… and my main aim to write this post was to have people’s suggestion and feedback about my thinking…
    @Sandeep I am trying really hard not to get placed somewhere … because if you are placed, the innovative part of life ends right there … (though everyone needs a backup)
    @all thanks again … do leave your suggestion or criticism… i would really appreciate it and would be helpful for me to get going …

  5. It is a very well written,honest and non-technical post. That is why I really enjoyed reading it. Its good to see that you are not after money and are passionate about the work that you do. Good luck for all of that. Nice post!

    Keep blogging!

  6. Nice Post!!
    I have no idea of startups but one thing I know is that one should follow his heart and do what one wants. If you really want to do something then go ahead on your journey. But if there is fear that you will regret after going bankrupt that choosing a nice salary would have been better, then don’t do it. Wait for sometime, get a right mindset, priortize your goals then take a step ahead.

    And dood take care of your health; with a sick body you won’t able to become a Larry Page. Having a good health is the most priority thing.

  7. Great going dude, you really inspire people to take up task that the they intend to do really. Take care of your health.

    Looking forward for more posts of this kind.

  8. Awesome :))
    I really enjoyed reading this post. Its good that u have such a passion but don’t let your health go down.
    My best wishes are with you.
    Hope to read some more posts like this.
    Enjoi :))

  9. Great man!!
    True from heart, no placements worry,no backups!!
    Dood atleast one backup is needed even then if u can manage , u will be true source of inspiration!!!
    I generally don’t read blogs but this one is pretty good post.
    U can let people think again why they r doing anything!!
    Keep blogging!!!

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